#ttt five.

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- Dancing with complete abandon (flailing limbs) with favourite friends at a wedding in Adelaide. I had so much fucking fun this weekend! Congratulations to Leon and Kate (and apologies for all the hideous photos you're going to discover on those disposable cameras).

- These blondies. A little too much sugar for my sugar-phobic tastebuds, but I'll adjust the recipe and they will be perfect.

- Breakfast with my Mum, Dad and Aunty this weekend. So grateful for the opportunity to be together - talk crap, talk science, talk personal.

- Live music. We've seen 24 bands this year. 24! It's only February! This equates to 2 festivals and 3 gigs; still impressive though!

- I'm feeling super grateful for my diary-keeping habits. I found the diary I kept in Malaysia (KL, Cameron Highlands, Penang, Langkawi) last night, and spent a good long while flipping through the pages; reminiscing with Rufus about things we'd forgotten. Such as the time that we were on a bus, and a huge, heavy suitcase fell on a European backpacker (she was okay - Rufus helped her climb out from under it), which had a tiny, ancient Chinese lady next to us in hysterical laughter for a good five minutes (which, in turn, had me in a gigglefit).

- Also feeling super grateful for lazy nights on the couch with Rufus - bingeing on TV shows and cuddling up against the unseasonably cold evenings.

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(L to R) photo from DisneyWorld, tiny lucky pig, Buddah from Malaysia, copper candles from the market, Grimes album, crappy record player - already broken, love fern, alcohol bottles. 
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I could pretend that I'm embarrassed about my clothing choices, but I'm not. I didn't get sunburned, and if the cost of that was looking like a dick in a stupid hat, I'm cool with it.

just a minute in February.

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Eating: too much sugar - my skin hates me for it.
Cooking: Moroccan sweet potatoes and rice (adaptation of this recipe).
Drinking: coffee, and my new favourite tea combo: one peppermint teabag, one green teabag. 
Practicing: daily meditation. 
Mastering: daily journaling.
Learning: the importance of pursuing my own hobbies, and how those hobbies contribute to my becoming the person I want to be.
Reading: Stephen Fry's Moab is my Washpot. I really enjoy it! But there are many British references I don't quite understand.
Wanting: to go camping! I need some more nature in my days.
Looking: for a pair of good quality, ethical, not completely break-the-bank-expensive black flats. Tips?
Listening: The Smashing Pumpkins - since catching a bit of their set at Soundwave this weekend, I've been on a Pumpkins binge!
Wasting: energy worrying.
Wishing: for an easy way out.
Waiting: to finish my degree. I know it's a long time. I know it's not good to constantly be looking forward and waiting... but I just cannot wait to be finished.
Liking: my bullet journal. It really suits the way my brain works.
Wondering: what I should do with my life. How I could possibly manage to make all the money I need and still have the time and energy to do the things I love. And how to be happy with what I have.
Feeling: anxious, restless, happy.
Hoping: that this weekend will be restful.
Watching: I just finished re-watching The Gilmore Girls. Also watching Bob's Burgers (hilarious) and Person of Interest.
Needing: apart from black flats? Trousers, a lightweight jacket, and some colourful, work-appropriate tops. (Can you tell I'm in the process of refining my wardrobe?)
Smelling: literally? Right now? Tahini and apples - my afternoon snack.
Wearing: layers. 
Noticing: a blossom on my pumpkin plant. All my zucchinis died - it's been a wet summer. Sad. 
Grateful for: after-work TV time.
Loving: Rufus' happy face.  

#ttt. four.


- At Laneway festival this weekend, I wore denim shorts. Why is this significant? Because, since the age of maybe 10, I have hated my body. I don't say that lightly, and admitting that is difficult for me... but I have loathed myself and my body for the majority of my life. Do I believe that women of all sizes are beautiful? Do I believe in self-love? Do I believe that women of all shapes and sizes should be able to wear tiny shorts when it's hot outside? Do I realise that I'm not at an unhealthy weight? Yes. Yes yes yes. I still find it incredibly hard to apply these beliefs to myself. I am so proud of myself for wearing these, for continuing to work hard on my self-acceptance, and for putting evidence of myself in these tiny pants on the internet.

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- 2016 Euro-plans with my best gal pal! Guys, we've been planning this trip since we were 15! To celebrate our 25ths, we're going to hit up the biggest cities in Europe - drink wine and eat bread in Paris, eat pasta and drink more wine in Venice, eat special brownies in Amsterdam and drink beer in Munich. ... Basically we'll be huge when we get back to Australia. I AM SO EXCITED!

- A work colleague who loves coffee as much as I do. There's no judgement here.

- And this little nerd:

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slices of weekend.

Awesome weekend funtimes!


So, despite being on deaths door last week (maybe a slight exaggeration... I had the flu), this weekend was beyond wonderful. Perfect food at Top Paddock for breakfast on Saturday (these guys own several cafes in Melbourne and are just killing it! My toast with (perfectly blanched) broccoli and sugar snap peas, poached eggs, Heidi raclette, avocado, and roasted almonds was just... beyond); dancing, drinking (rum and ginger beer), eating (GREEN SMOOTHIE!), laughing at the expense of drugged-up festival-goers, and standing on tippy toes to see FKA Twigs at Laneway festival - my favourite Australian music festival by far; and a long beach walk with coffee and cookies.

this may be blurry, but Rufus looks so damn happy, so I don't care.
out of focus, but so beautiful.
I'm growing out my eyebrows... can you tell? (Yes, I know you can.)

I love the ocean. It wasn't particularly hot on Sunday, so apart from a few dogs and their owners, we had the place to ourselves! We met a trooper of a pup with only three legs, fished through the rock pools for little crabs, watched the pelicans and swans take off in the wake of an energetic kelpie, and climbed on top of all the rocks we could find. Life is good.

How was your weekend?

#ttt. three.

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- For the month of January, due to a mix-up with my contract, I have only been working 3 days a week. At first, this made me incredibly unhappy - less money, less time to get my work done, more time bored at home because of less money. In retrospect, I am so thankful for this enforced break. I had two days each week to myself - for nothing but my own interests. While I spent a lot of time on the couch, I also practiced taking photos, meditating, yoga, and eating alone in public. This break taught me about patience, and about relinquishing control in a situation I could not change. It's also given me a swift kick in the butt in terms of my gratitude - if the worst part of my day is that I have a little enforced holiday for a month, life's not too bad.

- My first successful crane pose in yoga!

- This cake.

- A lovely housewarming for dear friends who catered generously with mini burgers (lentil for me, thanks guys!) and red wine. We stood around in the sun-drenched garden and chatted - about gardens and travel, mostly - for a few lovely hours. I'm so grateful to have met such an accepting, inclusive group of peeps.

- The opportunity to take blood at work! When working in the research centre in Adelaide, I was trained in phlebotomy and actually really enjoyed the blood-taking process (what a creep). I'm stoked to get the chance to utilise my skill!

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